メフィストフェリーズ (r4v3rc0mm13) wrote,
メフィストフェリーズ
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Looking back at the last set of entries I wrote before my hiatus, I was an angry, naive, emotional little child. Now, I'm...I guess, still all of the above. I suppose since I first got my LJ, my total displacement took about seven years and moved me from the office in my parents' house downstairs to the guest room upstairs where I'm staying to get away from university life and the responsibilities of living alone. In other words, that is about ten yards up and five years of maturity down.

I'm kind of hoping to find some kind of LJ survey about my life that I filled out years ago that I can just update to keep track of what's new and what's old, but I'm still a little lost here. I'd also like to hide some of the older posts because they make me uncomfortable, especially when they talk about my relationship with someone who was about two significant others ago...which really irks me. For maybe two years after that relationship ended, I liked to pride myself on keeping on good terms with the person, but more recently, the thought that I ever slept with him really, really grosses me out. I don't know why it is that I made this uncomfortable for myself. Things were fine, nothing bad happened when we broke up. I think this weirdness is my fault.

It seems like I take it pretty badly when I start losing connections with people I onced enjoyed the company of. Ex-significant others, ex-friends, my family, my boyfriend's family, etc., the last of which has b& me from their house because I used to hang around there all the fucking time, forcing me and Donut to resort to fucking in his car, including today, during daylight, in the parking lot of the mall.

Yes, yes. Enough information from me. If anyone has one of those survey thingies I can fill out, please gimme?
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